Writing a full length novel, cover to cover, was genuinely one of the most wonderful experiences I have ever had. It was a lot like falling in love. There were these characters, that I didn't really know at first, but the more I got to know them, the more I liked them. And the more I liked them, the harder it became to tell their stories. Because stories get messy sometimes. Some days I knew exactly where Brooke and Branson and Charlie were headed. And other days, I had to just given them the day off, because I had no direction for them.
For several months, Brooke’s story because my obsession. She would be my first thought in the morning and she kept me awake at night. I would wake up at 2am, with ideas for where things were headed. And I would have to get up. I did not have a choice. It had to come out. On several occasions, I awoke from sleep with great clarity about issues that I was unable to wrap my head around during the day. My subconscious worked as hard on the novel as my conscious mind did.
For a long time, I did not know how the story was going to end. I had ideas. But none of them felt “right.” It took time to really get inside Brooke to see how she would have things end. Because, I came to realize, it wasn’t about what I wanted to have happen at all. It was always about her.
One of the most surprising experiences I had while writing the book was that I was not always in control of what was happening next for the characters. I had an idea. A road map, But on more than one occasion, I found that I was completely taken by surprise by what was occurring on the computer screen in front of me. I was shocked (and sometimes dismayed) by what my fingers were typing, but I learned to trust where the characters where taking me.
In the end, I believe that I will carry Brooke with me forever. She taught me a lot about myself. I am really glad that I got to know her. I hope you will enjoy getting to know her too.
This is were you get to read about what's going on inside my head. I apologize in advance - the place is a wreck.